Trials and Triumphs – 2 Weeks in Barbados

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Selah X. Casamalhuapa-Brownlee

<i>Pronouns</i>: She/her <i>Home Institution</i>: University of California, Santa Barbara <i>Expected Graduation Year</i>: 2024 <i>Academic Major / Minor</i>: Sociology / Applied Psychology <i>Destination</i>: St. Michael, Barbados <i>"Hello" in your host country's language</i>: Hallo! <i>Program Provider</i>: UCEAP <i>Demographics</i>: African American/Black, Hispanic/Latinx, Multiracial, Community College Student, Transfer Student <i>Future Career Goals</i>: My future career goal is to become a clinical social worker with an emphasis on human health. I plan to pursue a PhD in Sociology and work to improve the health and well-being of marginalized communities. <i>Top Three Study Abroad Goals</i>: 1) Thoroughly document my life abroad through journalism, photography, and scrap-booking. 2) Learn about sustainable clothing options and thifting culture in Barbados 3) Network, connect, and learn from my host community!

Adjusting to moments of adversity has provided me with tremendous opportunities to endure hardships with fortitude.

The weeks leading up to my departure were stressful and I found myself picking apart the pieces of my life

Dissecting every challenge; telling myself I wasnโ€™t ready to go and the experience could wait.

The reality of traveling alone consumed me with an unimaginable fear of doom

And then everything else bubbled to the surface

Will I make friends? How will I get to the market? How different will I look from everyone else? Will I be homesick? Will I get lost on campus? Surely, I will.

With every negative thought I had, I chose to replace it with a positive one

I did this up until I got to the American Airlines gate and again when I landed in the new place that I now proudly call my home

I grabbed my luggage

Got into a taxi

Headed to my dorm

As I made it to my destination safely, the beautiful Frank Worell Campus Hall, I silently thanked God, myself, and all the people in my life who made this experience possible

When I entered the dorm hall I was greeted by Khyle, one of the Guild Student representatives

The simple exchange of smiles and โ€œHow was your flightโ€ โ€œLet me know if you need anythingโ€ โ€œTry to get some restโ€ put my mind at ease

I unlocked the door to my room and sat on my bed. In that moment I reassured myself on why I made this decision; that soon enough I will see it was all worth it

I have been in Barbados for two weeks now and I have had the time of my life

Greeting and befriending students from Trinidad, Jamaica, St. Lucia, Antigua, Dominica, Grenada, Berkeley, Canada, and South London has opened my heart to the blessings of endurance

Yes, I have gotten lost on campus

Yes, I have gotten homesick at times

Yes, I do look different from everyone else

But the relationships and networks I have created in such a short amount of time remind me that I am exactly where I am supposed to be

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